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Confessions of a Woman Scorned

People wonder why I stay, they will always have something to say… Honey you can do so much better! Look how beautiful you are, why would you continue to give him the time of day. Is he doing the things you need, the things you want, is he being a man!? I sit and I shake my head at the comments that we make to our fellow women, our sister Queens and young women.  When we think of a woman scorned we imagine it being the man who has crossed her wrongly in so many different ways. We disregard the fact that our counterparts speak some silly things into our minds. We come to you in help and comfort and the most you can say is leave and what you wouldn’t do if that were you.  How can my sister, someone who is supposed to be there for me reject me, reject my build, reject my creation?

My King, you defied me, you crossed me and yes you’ve hurt me. You’ve challenged me for the good and the bad but through it all I stay and I stand firm. I bend and I sway I give you a breeze on a hot summer day. I’m the strength you need in every way. I trained and prepared for you since I was a precious princess… I was taught to love and care for you and our family through my baby dolls. I was taught how to act like a lady before I became a lady… Cook, clean, stay fit and healthy, be there to rub his back, support him when he’s up and even more when he’s down, kneel with him when he prays. I’ve lived my entire life for you, and I wonder what have you done to prepare for me? I don’t understand how you could hurt me, I don’t understand why you would leave me? I’m lost without you because I’ve given you all of me, I don’t know what to do without you because of this tragedy… I, I, I….

WHY can’t I let go? If I can provide these things from me for you then shouldn’t I be able to provide them from me for me? The answer is NO, I can-not…. I stay because this is my home, this is my happiness through the pain, this is what I nurtured and cared for all along the way. I’ve carried you when you were broken, you’ve built me up when I was torn in many pieces. You’ve hurt me yet loved me in ways no one else has ever attempted… Will I be foolish to leave or crazy to stay? Will I be foolish to stay and crazy to leave? None of those makes any sense and neither does loving you more than I love me….

I HATE you because I LOVE you so much more than I may ever love me….

A woman scorned is a woman who has been rejected in love from her self, she is considered to be very angry and dangerous….Because she’s dangerously in love….

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Mother and Self Created Queen seeking to change the lives of people in the world. I want people to know that #SelfLove is thee most important love in the world. I have experienced many things in life and know first hand how it is and feels to be alone in a world surrounded by many people. I started the social Media Label #FindingMe to promote and encourage self love, growth, and encouragement through life struggles. I am currently writing a book and studying life coaching, counseling, and psychotherapy. I advocate for movements in life, our universe deserves to know that there are more people who appreciate the greatness in life than there are who do not appreciate it.

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