As negative thoughts race through my mind my body tenses up and my pressure begins to rise….
Nothing caused these things to come to me I was having a decent day. No one bothered me no burden I am carrying no bad vibes I want to stay.
I began to focus on the thoughts that plaque the most powerful vessel I have… My brain…
The vessel that controls my moves, my emotions, my dreams, my visions, my body, my sight, my well being. It’s a battle ground in there, a force of push and pull. Submit and stand tall, bend but don’t break, sway but don’t fall. Grabbing both sides of my head as if that will call a truce; shaking it off and speaking happiness back into me. Tighten up King/Queen you’re better than this don’t lose your focus you’ve come so far. As quick as that relieves the chatter in the back and forefront of my most prized possession. I fall prey once more, why did this have to happen!? Why is it you who is always suffering and hurting worse than before? You’re use to hurt it’s okay we’ve picked our self up in the past we can do it once more…. Wanting to just throw things, hit people, and scream; release the anger and frustration that haunts me in my wildest dreams.
In the nick of time, before all is momentarily lost…..
A touch that calms me and soothes the rage burning in my soul. A hug that brightens up the clouds that cover my inner light. A smile and a laughter that stretches happiness across my face…. The grace of love and happiness I welcome in that space; to replace what was temporarily stolen without a trace.
Dear mind, body, spirit, and soul…. This is your friend Life Lesson talking to you. I’m not here to hurt you but give you power and make you superior to the person you were moments ago. Don’t dwell on the pain that has come along with this lesson. Focus on the conqueror I’ve birthed and raised inside of you. Prepare for the greatness I have in store. Not all the things I teach are bad, not all the images you see of me are bad. One thing about me that’s amazing, is happiness and without me it would be something you never HAD.
Don’t deny your rainy days, turn them into showers of JOY