It has taken quite some time for me to get my thoughts together for this entry. I could not figure out how to get my words together, exactly what I wanted to write about, how would I start, what should I say.
Well for starters lets just say BELIEVE!
I cam across this word this morning, well more so last night because I prepare some of the things I share on my #FindingMe social media pages the night before. At first I had no thought process about it, until I shared it this morning. What typically happens is I share a gratitude question, an inspirational word (Believe) and then a weekly question of #SoulSearching. I answer the questions myself that way others begin to chime in and it isn’t one-sided. When I first answered it my original answer was, I believe in myself!
Yes I do believe in myself, but I soon was able to see that I had stopped believing in those around me. I then of course like most women/people do begin to wonder why I had stopped believing in others. As fast as I questioned my feelings, I answered my thoughts… because SOME people have such a hard time believing in themselves and they project that the only way for them to believe in themselves is for someone else to believe in them. My heart became a little hardened not with other people, primarily myself. *Sigh*
I know, you don’t have to say it… Mrs. Sincere Heart, you do not have to beat yourself up because others struggle with things like this, it’s a personal problem!”
Yet I’m going to share this… My first thought is always I had to learn and so do others. That’s my pride and my ego, my humanly flesh that says, I had to get here on my own so does the next person.” Then there’s that little angel that sits on the right should, or as some would like to picture him/her floating over your right shoulder. Whispering in your ear…”Don’t you remember how bad you felt when you didn’t believe in yourself?” “Don’t you remember how you wished someone would believe in you the way you learned to believe in yourself?” “Don’t you remember how you wished you had someone to just believe in you in general?”
All of these I have to process and follow my gut instincts and make a choice. Do I continue to just believe in me of do I be compassionate and put forth what I wished I had? I choose to put forward what I wish I had back then in my darker days. For those of us who have no trouble believing in self, take a moment and remember if there was a point in time when you didn’t believe in yourself, or if you even knew how to believe in yourself. Just like love and trust and loyalty and many other things once you can do this with yourself it become s a little easier to do it with others. Even if you feel you struggle with it give them the benefit of the doubt at first, you never truly know what may transpire form the little bit of faith and belief you give to a person.
Now the ultimate question is: How do you believe in yourself?
Allow yourself to feel the reality of not believing in yourself and then you will be able to start being able to
- Get out of your comfort zone
- Stand out enough to be noticed and grow past the fear of rejection
- Obtain habits and rid yourself of negative feelings and thoughts
- Begin doing the right thing with practiced discipline
- Trusting yourself
- Be OKAY with not NEEDING to know what’s about to happen
- Getting things wrong is actually apart of learning… In the words of all three of my children’s first grade teacher Mrs. Oostman, “It’s okay to get it wrong, that’s how you learn!”
- Just because you did fail it doesn’t make you weak, it makes you stronger because you now know what you are capable of and what you are not capable of.
Any other way you can figure out how to step into yourself and believe in the energy and powers that you possess then so be it. Sometimes life will push us into believing in ourselves because there are many people who DO NOT desire to believe in you. All you have is you in the beginning and in the end.
I believe in YOU and ME