I use to feel broken, like I was shattered glass. I was fragile to myself but stronger than a healthy ox to the world. Day in and Day out, I smiled and paraded my mask. I was happy and there was nothing anyone could do to change that.
Talk about me, call me names, push me, pull me, slap me in my face, make her turn red. Yes I had all of those things that would and could make a person run, hide, hurt, and be ashamed.
What I found inside of me was the “broken” connection I had with self… The shattered heart of my current self from “KNOWING” what the younger version of me survived, conquered, and lived through. She; the little girl inside of me, she wasn’t hurt, she wasn’t bothered, she wasn’t in any pain or suffering. There were no signs of her needing to forgive herself and even more powerful the people that hurt her, wronged her, and “scarred” her.
She is happy, she is serene, I am not her and she is not me because the things that lie beneath me do not affect her…
Yes, you were hurt and maybe even tortured as a child, many of us were. The thing we have such a hard time facing is:
We are NOT our younger selves, even though the child in us still lives. That part of us that lives is the happy part, the part that we forgot about, the part that we have abandoned and rejected. “It isn’t always our younger selves that hurt, sometimes it’s the adult, and sometimes it’s the memory of the pain.”
If our younger selves have and are more than capable of living happily and freely in the past, present, and future then at some point WE must grab the hand of that child and live wholly and completely together in harmony.
I don’t want to forget about those of us who do have a suffering child inside of them… It is never to late to stop, take a deep breathe and be the superhero you looked high in the sky for. To be the superhero that you wanted and needed to protect you from the bad guys that plague you in your current adult nightmares. It’s never to late to love the younger version of you, the inner child that cries to you and looks to you to be happy, free, loving, and wholeheartedly heal.
“Be the parent or parents you wanted to yourself, your children if you have them, and other children of the world.”
Adopt some new parents, who will give you what you didn’t have before and more.
“There is always someone out there looking for love just like me, you, and we; it’s a universal language we speak fluently.”
I love you my dear child unconditionally